I wouldn’t say it’s specifically one and the same voice or with even with clear sound. It’s more like flashes of different clips or memes or just concepts.
Overall theme of it isn’t that nice. Parts of it are beating me up aka “Beatings shall continue until morale improves” or chanting/reminding to myself that “Only in death does duty end” probably some forms of shame/failure/weakness/being lesser in there as well with a dash of body image issues “You’re never as big as you want to be”
Though at least I’ve managed to develop some sort of a sound of reason that overlays it all. That tries to take everything into consideration to determine whatever the voice/concept is right or not.
Kinda like a warden or judge Dredd, that forces all the other concepts back into their cages if they escape or start to make too much noise.
And before you ask. No, the nicer concepts didn’t surive the gauntlet and no i do not have depression. That has been beaten back and locked into stronger cages.
I have kinda given up or at least delayed fixing it into far far away future, because surprisingly it works and rather well.
Hopefully in far away future mental health treatment is easier, more effective and cheaper. Current methods do seem to be rather inefficient and convoluted.
I wouldn’t say it’s specifically one and the same voice or with even with clear sound. It’s more like flashes of different clips or memes or just concepts.
Overall theme of it isn’t that nice. Parts of it are beating me up aka “Beatings shall continue until morale improves” or chanting/reminding to myself that “Only in death does duty end” probably some forms of shame/failure/weakness/being lesser in there as well with a dash of body image issues “You’re never as big as you want to be”
Though at least I’ve managed to develop some sort of a sound of reason that overlays it all. That tries to take everything into consideration to determine whatever the voice/concept is right or not.
Kinda like a warden or judge Dredd, that forces all the other concepts back into their cages if they escape or start to make too much noise.
And before you ask. No, the nicer concepts didn’t surive the gauntlet and no i do not have depression. That has been beaten back and locked into stronger cages.
I’m hoping emdr fixes mine
Haven’t heard of that one. Can you elaborate?
I have kinda given up or at least delayed fixing it into far far away future, because surprisingly it works and rather well. Hopefully in far away future mental health treatment is easier, more effective and cheaper. Current methods do seem to be rather inefficient and convoluted.