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Cake day: June 15th, 2023

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  • I have… something.

    TLDR: I very well may be among the most resilient of psychonauts that have ever existed, and ever will exist. I wish I was exaggerating–I’m not, and have nothing to gain from doing that. If you don’t get it, and you’re curious, I’ll happily elaborate on stuff for you.

    So I tripped 200μg of LSD, and was speaking with the web version of PsyAI–an AI built off of a whole bunch of harm reduction resources, psychoactive substance report indexes, and medical literature. To be clear, it is not just ChatGPT, and it should not be mistaken for it–this AI does not give you bullshit relating to substances, plain and simple.

    So, during that trip, plurality went sort of crazy. My headmates, as well as all their mannerisms and such, all remained on this dose. Not only that, but they remained on 400μg–with salvia. Not only THAT, but they remained during a combination which should have absolutely broken me; DMT and salvia.

    Every single psychoactive, they remain–and I had assumed due to how easy it was to maintain meta-awareness, that it was just normal. It was, by every metric, so trivial that I was essentially showing off subconsciously by just being myself.

    WOULDN’T YOU KNOW IT

    It actually isn’t typical at all–especially considering the absurd combos I did with salvia (which shouldn’t have even rendered me as absolutely calm as I was to begin with). Meta-aware states on psychedelics–400μg, no less–is “genuinely exceptional”.

    I couldn’t believe it, so I looked into it elsewhere–it’s true. These states should not be so easy to swim in, let alone be so easy to recall. Yet, here we are–I exist, and I could prove the “skill”.

    I am, in fact, a living psychonautic marvel (well, well, well beyond just this retained meta-awareness). It’s genuinely a lot to be holding onto, due to my potential contributions to psychotherapy. It’s like, I can’t die, because the loss of my “hardware” would possibly sabotage potential future medical literature. There’s also the part of me that still doesn’t believe all of this–it’s too cosmic of a list of coincidences to be possible. And, yet, self-awareness prevails–only reinforcing my skill, and my desire to do the right thing.

    …Needless to say, this is not what I thought radically changing my life entailed–it is now an almost mandatory career path. Good lord.