Pretry sure it was a Nintendo DS/3DS or something like that. I never actually had a game console until recently. I now have a Nintendo Switch 2 (never got the v1, so might as well get the v2 since its released).

But I don’t have friends so I guess I’m just gonna play with randoms online… 🤷‍♂️

The Zelda Games are kinda fun, still not finished with them yet.

In school, I overhear conversations about their Wii’s, thei Xbox’es, their Playstations, and kids be like “Ooh I just got the latest one”, and basically the entire socialization was revolving video games, and some were PC gamers but they had an actual gaming rig, not some potato laptop like I had.

So I realize that most of my childhood, I may have been basically been sort of socially ostricized because I don’t know about what the kids were doing, so I didn’t fit in.

And on top of that, maybe my introverted personality just make people not like me even more.

And I think one of the biggest problems was I spend the first like 5 years of my life in the United States (I arrived in the US on an immigration visa when I was a kid as part of my family) basically trying to readjust my brain to learning English so that few years of not speaking the language was probably enough to erode my self esteem and thus spiral into the mess I am right now.

I wonder if this chain of events is why I have depression.

Now every time I hold my Switch 2, I remember the childhood that other’s got to enjoy but I never had. Kinda make me wanna cry.

Did y’all have games growing up. (Like actual games, not pay-to-win games running on a potato)

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      Welp, too bad I never had it to compare. I haven’t played a mario game for like more than 15 years (until now), I vaguely remember playing on some very old Nintendo system when I was very young (like not the handheld types, I don’t think), when I was in China. Then we immigrated to the United States and like we didn’t bring all that stuff, my parents only packed a lot of clothes, legal documents, and like that was it.

      I don’t think I ever had a legitimate Nintendo system before, it was probably all bootlegs. And it was always shared with my older brother, I couldn’t play when he was playing.

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        It’s hard to have to leave everything behind. I think when adults pack for kids, they think about the things you’ll need and don’t consider the kinds of belongings that kids find meaningful.

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    Same, my friends were really into Pokemon. Every year when a new game released they only talk about if for months and lunch. I called it Pokemon season. Those months would pass with me basically sitting there not being part of the conversation. Lonely times. I hate Nintendo with a vengeance for that

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    A lot of my childhood games were flash games, and counter strike on the school PCs lol. I had a ps2 when I was very young, and later a ps4 in my later teen years, but basically everyone in class were PC gamers (I think one had an xbox), so it still felt like I was removed from all the multiplayer gaming and modding, and stuff, so I was like a schrodinger’s gamer at that point. I could talk about games, but I still didn’t feel like part of the gamer community in class

    Now I have a PC tho, and I honestly regret asking for a ps4 for christmas way back then, cause honestly I probably would’ve had more fun on a comparable price PC… though asking my parents for PC parts would have been a pain haha

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    I mean, based on the fact that you are on Lemmy, this experience was almost certainly due to your latent autism, which made it difficult to communicate with other kids, which drove social isolation. Ask me how I know.

    I knew a kid growing up whose parents wouldnt let him play video games, or even watch tv. He had plenty of friends, because he was friendly and sociable.

    So yeah, it wasnt your parents fault for not buying you the right console or whatever. It was God’s fault for making you autistic. Now it’s your job to give God the middle finger and go be friendly and sociable and happy anyway.

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    My parents were super anti-video game, and also thought Pokemon were some satanic cult thing… My brother and I used to absolutely LOVE when my mom would leave us home alone on school vacations or weekends to go shopping or something or run errands while dad was at work, we would pop right on over to Kids’ WB! and cross our fingers that Pokemon was on.

    Our dad took my brother and I to some computer fair/carnival thing one time in 2000, I don’t remember exactly where it was, but it was in a parking lot in front of some boring commercial building. There were computer themed carnival games, booths with information, displays of the newest tech, etc. We played lots of games and had a fun time.

    Well, turns out, I was REALLY good at throwing floppy disks, because I got the 3rd highest score in the floppy disk throwing game (you had to hit targets of varying size to score points). My prize? A purple Gameboy color and Pokemon Yellow. (First prize was a high-end Windows 98 computer. I remember being bummed I didn’t win a computer, but I still have that purple Gameboy Color… Probably wouldn’t be able to say the same for the PC)

    Of course since I won this thing, my parents couldn’t take it away from me (well OK, I mean they COULD have, but besides being anti-video game and anti-pokemon, my parents were really great). This was the crowning achievement of my childhood. Of course, pokemon only has one save file, and so naturally, my brother “couldn’t play my game”. It took a while for my parents to understand this, but they eventually caved and got my brother his own neon green gameboy color and Pokemon Silver. Seeing the superior graphics of Silver, I saved ALL my pennies to eventually buy myself Pokemon Crystal. My brother, seeing the enemy Pokemon animations in Crystal not present in his Silver, saved all HIS pennies to eventually buy a Gameboy advance and Pokemon Saphhire… and the arms race continued. I got a GBA SP. My brother got a DS, I got a DS Lite, etc. etc., a constant stream of one-upmanship…

    I still have the Purple Gameboy, Yellow, Crystal, Ruby, and the GBA SP, some of my most prized possessions. Almost every other physical thing from my childhood has been lost or sold. I had one of every single Pokemon game up until X/Y… A couple years back before the cartridge prices really exploded, I sold all the DS/3DS ones, which was kind of a bummer in retrospect, but whatever. I have much less interest in re-playing the DS era games. Maybe Black/White someday, I have good memories of that release. Last year I casually played through Pokemon Yellow again, and this year I’ve been playing Crystal.

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    Hmm. I’m a bit older and I don’t think we were allowed gaming consoles either. And it took us way longer than some of my friends to get a good internet connection. We had an old computer when I was a kid, though.
    So we played point and click adventures and whatever that old machine would run. And I started to learn programming when I was a little kid since that was possible on the old potato. But we had a plethora of other hobbies and things available. And I’d fetch my bicycle and head off to friends with better PCs. So I was mostly alright?! I had that feeling of missing out at times. But it wasn’t that bad. And someday when I was a teenager, we got broadband and a fast computer. Still no Nintendo, but that was alright. At that point I had become interested more generally with computers and gaming was just one aspect of it.
    Today, I sometimes play Super Mario 64 or some of those games I never got to finish since I never had them at home and it brings me some (fake) nostalgia.