UK and the lollipops were Swizzels Fruity Pops. Can’t remember how many of them there were but I’d say about 50 in a large container.

It’s not depression it’s more like… “am I a good or a bad person” “I’m bad” “okay maybe I’m good” “no, I’m bad” “am I mature enough to handle this I’m immature” “no I’m mature” “no I’m immature I can’t handle a relationship” “I’m lonely I need someone” “no I don’t need someone, I don’t deserve someone” “everyone’s better than me” stuff like that in rapid succession, constantly alternating as an inner voice kind of thing