six months after my last workplace went bankrupt, i’m out again. an international consultancy firm took me and all my colleagues in from the failing business and we got raises and bonuses… and now i’ve been let go. only me.
they’ve not managed to sell my skills anywhere for six months, so the decision makes economic sense, but… that just makes me feel useless. evidently the local office feels bad because they decided to pay out this month’s salary in full, but that doesn’t really help with the self-esteem.
after all the shakiness of the bankruptcy and being lied to about great numbers leading up to it, i just wanted some stability. but fuck me i guess.
…so how’s your day?
no comforting words needed, i’m just happy for your presence.
as noted elsewhere, i’m an embedded systems engineer. and i’ve been thinking since the first job i had in this role some nine years ago that maybe it’s not the right job. but trying different things is scary and expensive, and with my physique i’m automatically disqualified from a lot of things. i’d need a strict training regime and leg reduction surgery.
your workload is probably still more than i’ve had for the past half year. i’ve just been doing course work and hobby projects.