six months after my last workplace went bankrupt, i’m out again. an international consultancy firm took me and all my colleagues in from the failing business and we got raises and bonuses… and now i’ve been let go. only me.
they’ve not managed to sell my skills anywhere for six months, so the decision makes economic sense, but… that just makes me feel useless. evidently the local office feels bad because they decided to pay out this month’s salary in full, but that doesn’t really help with the self-esteem.
after all the shakiness of the bankruptcy and being lied to about great numbers leading up to it, i just wanted some stability. but fuck me i guess.
…so how’s your day?
that employee number thing really makes sense, as the company literally has over 350 000 employees and the branch i’m in just got a new general manager.
i had a meeting with my immediate manager today and he basically just apologised to me for an hour. we are all cogs in the machine.
maybe a smaller company will help me refocus. but on the other hand i’ve worked for smaller companies before and the stress levels are entirely different but equally devastating.
If there is a perfect job, I don’t know what it is.