Like damn this really took 10 months for me to do and now that it’s done I feel good.
That’s awesome, good job
Fuck yeah! Go OP!
Or did the depression let up enough to clean your room?
No my cleaning spur was induced by external pressures
This is why I invite people over when I can, give a reason for my place not to smell
Yup it’s a great motivator.
Cleaning helps undeniably force you to acknowledge that you asserted control over your situation and did something good with it. Keep finding moments to overcome the negativity inherent in depressive thoughts and it will have nothing on you any more. Depression’s remedy is usually to take better care of yourself and it makes you not want to, this is why it’s so horrible to overcome, but it can be done with consistent benefits of the doubt to yourself and improving your surroundings one day at a time.
Depression is a vicious cycle of I’m not worthy of help - I cannot help myself because I’m not worthy. Those baby steps of helping yourself with small things like taking care of your surroundings and your hygiene etc help bump you out of that cycle for a brief time and with sustained effort and help for when it’s needed or the problem is out of your ability to control and it can be defeated.
Good job OP, I wish you the best.
If I had the money and ability to trust strangers I would hire people to clean my house for me.
I love the loop of “feel bad for not cleaning - depressed - don’t clean - stare at floor - feel bad for not cleaning…”
Now wait until you have a big problem that isn’t in your power to fix and tell me that depression isn’t real
Revel in it. There are moments in life where you feel like you can do anything, and some where you feel like you can do nothing. Just store it in your heart and mind that both exist.
I need to do this. I have ADHD and it seems like such an overwhelming task.
Have you tried buddying up?
I find that my ADHD gets less in the way when there’s someone “observing” me while I do the task, leading me to much less random trailing off. They don’t actually have to do anything but be present or maybe talk to you.
I do some of my best cleanings when my mum calls. Guaranteed hour long chat where I can be actually productive because even though it’s just a voice call, I feel judged enough to start doing something about it.
Sometimes I’ll just ask friends or family to be “moral support” while I clean or do tasks. Fun
Nothing like feeling that upswing hit
I will say that cleaning does seem to make me feel upbeat afterwards too. I should probably do it more…
A big part of that attitude is simply that you’re more likely to take care of those big tasks you’ve been putting off when you’re on the upswing away from depression. So it feels good unto itself, but you’re probably also in a mood that’s more conducive to feeling rewarded than a deep depression.
TL;DR: Cause and effect feeding off of each other.
It feels like less than 2.
I overestimated in my euphoria lmoa
